I submitted my letter of resignation on Friday morning.
I've been relatively quiet about my dissatisfaction with my job in the last month or so, mostly because thinking about it too much (and once in a while my writing requires thinking) just made me tired. I was able to reach within myself and decide to make the best of it for a while. But ultimately, I just couldn't shake the intense desire I had to quit in August when I got the news of the changes, or lack of changes, that would take place in the next stage of the orchestra.
If you want the whole story, give me a call. But it's not that interesting, really. All in all, I really think the universe was sending me a sign. In a week's time I got 3 offers that meet the qualities of definitely not ''A SHITTY GIG''. And I began to realize that while a handful of colleagues I love playing with, a lot of free time, and a steady paycheck are all wonderful things, it just is no longer worth it. If there is a time to take risks, live week to week, and have some adventures, now is it.
I am faced with a mix of emotions that I think will get worse before it gets better. I'm very excited to meet a lot of people and see many different parts of Mexico in the coming months. I'm totally dreading eating in restaurants all the time. I'm energized by the idea of being able to go for opportunities as they arise. I'm worried I might feel lonely a lot. I have high hopes that this decision will greatly improve the quality of my blog. But the biggest thing is that I will miss very much a group of colleagues that have become true friends, role-models, and unforgettable people in my life. Not seeing them every day will really take some getting used to.
I think, Ren, that they call it freelancing because you're free. And when you're free, life is full of possiblity. So, I'm looking forward to it. If you need a horn player for something, think of me! :)
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It's so cute that on your side bar, listed under currently playing, you've written "kitty concerts." I've never thought of spelling it that way! The mental image that verbiage conjures, that of playing a concert to an audience filled with enraptured cats, is decidedly awesome.
Congratulations on your decision to branch out and freelance throughout Mexico! I think this is a good decision; you will benefit greatly from experiencing different orchestras, new settings and new connections.
I look forward to reading all about it here in your blog. Best wishes!
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